Tuesday, September 28, 2004
2dae sark
s-a-r-k
feelin nauseous now
ate 3 panadols
4 nuth 2dae.
bringin 34 panadols 2 skool 2mrl.
mayb 4 fun. mayb 2 eat.
__i think im addicted 2 it.
bcos i noe it can kill mie.
wanzhen n mi went out
2 watch dodgeballz.
kinda nice.
is suppose 2 make us feel happier.
i was damn depressed 2dae.
damn damn depressed.
jus depress.......
jus holdin back tears i cant xplain
i lost a frien.
n it leads 2 losin anuth 1 of muai frien.
n both r de mos important ppl in muai life.
if u wanna leave.
i got nuthh 2 sae.
i did nuth.
i said nuth.
at least nuth dats deep.
i jus said bout de surface.
not anything more.
shes lost trust in mie.
wad can i say........
i don even noe wad i did..
i don even noe if i did it
if ur think wad dey said were right.
can u think bout mie 2?
can u hear mie out....
i dono y ppl r doin dis.
i dono wads life all about.
was already half thinkin of givin up.
cant...
jus cant
will life go back 2 normal...
all dis happens when i jus found passion in life...
Monday, September 27, 2004
friends r de blessin from god.
god planted 1 on muai left n 1 on muai right.
dat when i need sum1.
they will owaes b here 4 mie (=
n a bunch of chicks surroundin mie.
i took 1 week 2 get
over a broken friendship.
exams r coming.
better mug. i will.
haven tot of which stream 2 go..
dey dono.
dat im sad.
dey dono im freakin out.
wid all de tots runnin dru mie.
de real smile nbr existed.
burffdae coming.
reminds of mie n ben's meetin (=
promise 2 meet sumwhere near our bdaes
n exchange presents..rite? (=
2 scorpios = sexy couples.
im kiddin*stick tongue out*
tot of wad im gonna buy 4 evry1's bdae.
goin seriously broke.
cos all thoes cost a bomBb.
but lyk dey care 4 muai bdaes.
im givin up on a new hp 2 but presents.
see. i can sacrifice too.
na. im owaes here when u need some1.
i promise. i will.
so don bottle up.
im here.
vent it out on mie.
dats wad frienss r 4 rite? (= *cheesse*
Thursday, September 23, 2004
previous blog - a him.
life is ok.
still canot get him outta
mie-
bud acceptin de fact
dat hes jus [nuth]
n dat hes not worth
breakin my heart over....
mayb i shund at trusted u
so much yea?
mayb. i shund had absorb
all thoes attention showered on mie.
fromYOUtoME.
im jus gullible.
u were evrything i tot i noe.
now i noe u arnt.
i don think im living in u anymore...
well... neither r u my boy..
r u missin mie. lyk i miss u.
y shud i care
bout [ u ]
when all u care bout
is [ her ]
though i only intented
a [friendship]
i expected more
den wad u gave.....
to mie..
more truth
den lies
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
mayb time can h e a l.
mayb. things will b bck 2
n o r m a l .. . . . .
mayb things
e n d h e r e
mayb. things r ova
b e t w e e n u s.
m i lettin go a friendship
dat was mayb a lie...
n jus mayb nbr existed before..
de past is so
h o l d i n m i b a c k
i aint tryin 2 think bout u
im t r y i n h a r d
2getuouttamymind..
bud u seems to b
everywhere.......
deres no escapin from u
useem2b[suffocating]mie
if things r meant 2 b..
IT will come back 2 mie..
someday.
bud i aint gonna trust h**
anymore.
i guess soo....
[imissyou]
i[really]do
deres[nuth]
[escapin]from[you]
can[do]
wad happens
w h e n
de only person who can
stop u from cryin
made
u cry..
Monday, September 20, 2004
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
(CHORUS)
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
(Repeat Chorus)
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
(Repeat Chorus)
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
Saturday, September 11, 2004
sorii.. yuan ying.....
todae got flag dae~!
so boringg..
den mie n reena tik turns.
we hang at bugis mrt.
bud not de shoppin centre dere lar.
at least dere was where we settled at last.
de rest we were jus wonderin around.
n really tired...
den we went to eat mac.
to meet chinkiee..
took a blue balloon...
like wad i owaes do.........
im so sorri yy.
ruinin dis day.
i promise i will make it up 2 u...
i promise..
im sincere*~!
went home 2 slp after dat.....
couldnt slp.
rollin here n dere under de warm blanket..
no place s warm s under de blankett..
my blanket...
so comfiee.. lolz... im l a m eee....
haixx..
den went jurong point..
bought jay chous new cd
mum bought it 4 miee....
i guess is 2 make up 2 mie
4 not lettin mie out todayy..
of all day... //today
fineee......................................
nice cd.
de tears ive cried.
are jus half of all
pple's i hurted.
i guess god brought dis upon miee..
s a punishment?
for hurting so many ppleee
_________`i guess
cry____________
outta depressionnn..
Friday, September 10, 2004
had u eva tot u would get
cheated by a ger too.
well- i jus did
n it wasnt any normal friendships
obstacles like
betrayal. gossips. stabbin u frm de back.
she wasnt even muai frien.
she was more den a frien.
a sis.
n i tot she cared.
i tot she really did care*
bud now i noe. she don.
so i c wads goin on.
de words u said were fake.
arnt dey.
well hey gurl. deres no escaping.
im sick of dis.
n im sick of dat.
im sick of evrything u said.
acted lyk u cared.
uh - uh. im not in for anymoree........
leave mi alone
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Thursday, September 09, 2004
jay chou- jie kou
fan zhe wo men de zhao pian
xiang nian ruo ying nuo quan
qu nian de dong tian
wo men xiao de hen tian
kan zhe ni ku qi de lian
dui zhe wo shuo zai jian
lai bu ji ting jian
ni yi zhou de hen yuan
ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo
ye xu yi jing hen nan hui tou
wo zhi dao shi zhi ji cuo guo
qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo
jiu shuan shi wo bu dong
neng bu neng yuan liang wo
qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu
wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou
shi ni shou shang de jie kou
qing ni hui tou
wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou
jiu shuan mei you jie guo
wo ye neng gou cheng shou
wo zhi dao ni de tong shi wo gei de cheng mo
ni shuo gei guo wo cong rong
cheng mo shi ying wei bao rong
ru guo yao zhou
qing ni ji de wo
(Second Time)
ru guo nan guo
qing ni ji de wo
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004
is dis de life im gonna lead.
how am i gonna carry on.
can sum1 teach miee.
help mie to find passion in lifee.
things i would b happi wid.
cos im aint happi bout anything.
in muai life-
in mieee..............
im not feelin depressed.
im feelin v depressed.
no. im not desperate.
im v desperate.
im not lonely.
im alone.
de reason i lyk muai gerfriends so much.
dey arnt boys.
i hate bois.
i hate demm....
all r sick in their mindd.....
__stop actin lyk u care]
__when u dont]
__stop tellin mi]
__'no i don lyk her']
__when is obvious ur feelin ]
__de opposite]
__im sick of stayin here]
__n c u flirtin wid mie]
__n other gers]
__actin lyk im de ]
__one n only]
__when ur treatin de rest de same]
__no. ur nuth to miee.]
__n ya. keep ur distance from mie.]
__i would need dat..........]
__at least..... dats wad i thinkk....]
__would i b able 2 go on w/o u.....]
__would i b able to pretend i c nuth]
__when other gers tik muai placee.....]
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__would u allow other gers to tik my placee..]
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Tuesday, September 07, 2004
________do u hab 2 b a such a bitch
________jus to look hot
________well u noe ur not
________arnt ya satisfied wid wad u hab
________well im sori . bud I AM
________i don go round
________actin lyk im de one,
________seekin attention frm animals
________so wad if im not ya kinda thing
________cos im mie.
________i don need ya
________to show mi
________wad i need
________im happi wid wad i am
________hu i am
________n wid my not-bitchin friends
________sori - lyk it or not
________im staying
________im not moving on
________jus slower den ya
Monday, September 06, 2004
learn 2 cherish de things u hab.
love dem lyk u had.
it isnt de jus de same routine.
u love. u stead. u break. u hate.
n u hurt.
den when u look back.
u realise
u took dem for granted.
u regretted.
of all de times we shared
thet burned a hole in my mind-
i cant seem 2 forget,
wad it was dat made mi let go.
or was it suth i did dat i was guilty of
uhh. wad past is over.
jus history.
jus memories.
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Friday, September 03, 2004
okiee. 2dae. boringg. okie lar.
science- doin math ws.
math- markin math ws.
pe- captains ball
history- sleepin.
eng- doin de files.
den go out wid emi.
so much 2 catch up wid each other yep?
so long since we chat evrything.
good pal indeed. ummp.
u did a huge mistake
n tried 2 undo it wid lies
u think a gal aint strong enuff
2 go on
bud sorrie
lyk it or not
im moving on
now i show u how 2 go on.
the last -hugg-
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004
2dae. karen mum don let mui go her hse.
den ask her cum out oso cant.
reena oso dono wad cant cum out.
den i wake up at 1++.
piang at de sofa.
findin pple to go out.
den emi so early dono run until where.
den i dono hw cum...de hu kol miee.
den at de end go vick hse~
at least gt sumwhere 2 go.
wanted 2 swim.
bud u noe.
even muth.
is nt i superstitious or anything.
but my mum wun allow anywae.
den i brought my rollerskates along.
so heavi.
den mi eat cheesecake n alot things.
hahaz. vick pay. lolx. den feed cats wid cheese cake.
dey look so poor thing lorr.
bud i used 2 b scared of cats 1.
bud dono how cum dis tym nt scared.
mayb cos dey small?
still rmb de tym meet wei.L. b4 east coast.
he go touch de cats i lyk 1 metre awae from him.
hahaz. den vick sae swimmin pool gt sum guys.
go dere c dem. nt nice.
hahaz. yar den we took a memorial fotox.
den we hab sum really deep talks.
talks i only can wid her.
words im only able 2 sae 2 her.
w/o feelin embaressed.
frienz4eva...............
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